Sun...Capricorn
Moon...Virgo
Phase...slowly coming out of full.
Time...5:02pm
Mood...tired, missing my two younger kids (they flew home today.)
Sound...Bob Lassiter air check.
QuoteDiva sez: "Silence is golden when you can't think of a good answer." -muhammad ali
BubbleGumBlowin'BirthdayShoutOuts To: Nicholas Cage, Katie Couric, Kenny Loggins, Charles Addams, Butterfly McQueen, Millard Fillmore.

...New Writing Challenge! I am fickle, I get bored easily (note, I change my icon, practically, once a week, this week I'm using the photo of me, holding a picture of me at Sweet 16, in honor of my own daughter's 16th bday this Thursday. Next week, who knows!) I've decided that for each month, excluding Dec., I would come up with a new writing challenge. December will be pot luck, you know how that month gets so Holiday intensive, harried and chaotic. No holding me to any one thing then!

My favorite number is 6 and it's been that since I was about 13, don't ask me why. So I've decided that for each post, for the month of January, I will give myself 6 minutes to write about anything but when the timer goes off or when 6 mins. ticks away, that's it, wherever I am, TIMES UP! Anyone reading this will understand the abrupt end, those that don't read this will be totally confused,..tee hee...it'll be OUR JOKE!

Well, guess what, I have like 45 seconds left! So I think I'll end it he...TIMES UP!

-pr-

Namaste, Happy 2007 to my new fellow bloggers.

Sun in....Capricorn
Moon in...Leo
Phase...full
Time...6:41am
Weather...61 degrees and P/C in DC
Mood...insomnia reigns supreme.

Sound...Bob Lassiter air check (see my BOB LASSITER post) It's one of his old XMAS shows from '96....*sigh...God Bless His Soul...
BirthdayShoutOuts To: Bonnie Franklin...Danny Thomas...Kahlil Gibran...Joan of Ark AND....(drumroll please....) our very own Dreww of Life Ain't Always Beautiful! The big 4-0!
QuoteDiva sez: "A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort." Herm Albright

hmmm....

It's just not working out...my oldest living with fiance and I. She is blowing the opportunity we are giving her to live with us rent free and start college here, hell, up the freaking street.

It came to a head for me yesterday, ironically on youngest's 16th bday..in front of son, her and fiance listening from upstairs.

She and I talked. She can be passive aggressively disrespectful and a bit manipulative. She is also potential filled and witty and charming. Instead she wants to go it alone (but has yet to have a solid exit strategy.) Long story short, she said why are you butting into my affairs and after holding my tongue for the past 7 months I blew up and said BECAUSE you are 19....YOU ARE LIVING UNDER OUR ROOF and (most importantly) I'M STILL YOUR MOTHER!

I have had problems standing up as a mom because I feel guilty for leaving their dad 6 years ago and leaving my kids at 10/12 and 14. Just when she really could have used a full time mom...I left. So now she feels this entitlement and perhaps she's like, "well you weren't acting like my mom then...now suddenly you want to be MOM? Well fuck you." (She'd never say that outloud.)

Well tonite I composed a letter. The bottom line is: You have until your 20th bday to get out (8 months from now) If you are still here, start paying rent. I gave her a bare minimum list of things we EXPECT and I told her what we will provide for her. Food/Shelter/Medical assistance, you know, the basics.

She wants to do it on her own..make her own mistakes and she doesn't want to feel as though she has to live up to someone else's standards and expectations.

I was only trying to afford her something that I couldn't have possibly on my own. My fiance has been absolutely a prince in regards to accepting my children and this one in particular into his own home and now we both feel taken for granted.

Any thoughts? Similar stories? Wisdom? I won't act on this letter until I hear some of your ideas! It felt good just to write it! Why do they think that when they turn 18, 19 they know it all and are instantly ADULTS??? She can't even keep her damned room clean and she's lost two of our house keys...oh yes dear child, you are a grown up now! GAWD. I love her, I love her, I lov.....

Thanks...as ALWAYS!!!

-pr-

On this day 16 years ago at 7:43pm my youngest, Miss Capricorn as I call her here on the blog was born!

She and I have a game we play....every time someone says "She looks JUST LIKE YOU" we turn to each other and say,..."KA-CHING!" We get an imaginary $100! If it was real, we'd be up to like $1000 in the past 5 years! I call her my mini-me...she is!! In honor of her, I will use her most recent photo as an icon for the rest of the week! In the meantime, to see the MINI PRETTY RUBBLE here and NOW....(and she definitely puts the PRETTY in PRETTY Rubble...check out the gallery.)

Thanks to all of you that left words of advice and wisdom for her special Sweet 16 BDay Book-a few weeks ago. (*SEE MY "I NEED YOUR HELP/ADVICE POST) Those have been included in a Birthday Book to her! If you care to leave some well wishes and last minute LITTLE LIFE INSTRUCTIONS...please do so and I will include them on the last page of her book!

She leaves on Sunday so hurry and get your gems of wisdom and insight in ASAP!!! I've told her you guys are AMAZING and have been a big part of my life these past 3 months!

Happy Sweet 16 Miss Capricorn!!! I love you more than words can say!

-pr- aka Ma-Mommy!
PS) She's a "chip" off the ole Rubble!!!! But I hope she goes on to LEARN from all her mom's mist...er, lapses of good judgement!

How was your New Years Eve!!!!

Are you hung over!!!???

I will reveal my votes later today.....

HAPPY NEW YEAR PIONEER...thanks for ALLLLL your hard work and for this wonderful forum!!!

Hugs and kisses to all of you!!!!

-pr- Woo hoo....



ad nauseum......

This is it people, the very last day of the year! We made it!!

Do you have any resolutions? What resolution did you make last year that you kept!?

Do you have any special projects in the works for the coming year?

I have a resolution and I didn't wait until NY to start it. I really must get back in shape. Over the last 18 months I've gained 25lbs and my fiance, 20...neither of us were ever this out of shape. That is priority one as we head into our 45th year on earth!

As I've mentioned before, this is the year I get down to the bottom of many a mystery surrounding my birth, my birth mother and hopefully I will find out if my adoptive dad was my real dad. WE LOOK A LIKE!!! hmmm..

And no more hibernating,...I've had my time off, now I work towards my career in voice over. Which means training and coaching and acting lessons.

I also am working towards getting my youngest up here to live with me. She's been without a full time mom since she was 10 and she turns 16 on the 4th. It's time to get back together and see her through the rest of her high school days. We miss each other terribly. Dad's fine but a girl needs her mom!

I'll continue with this blog and get back to my Sabian Writing Challenges after the 6th when I have more time to invest in each daily "assignment."

If a child comes at this late age, so be it, were ready but if it's not in the great universal plan, were ready for that reality that Rubble here is going through the change! TMI!? I've noticed all kinds of changes personally, physically etc... it's bound to happen when you are 5 years shy of half a century!

That's the game plan going into '07 anyway! Check back in 12 months!
And stay tuned!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY BLOG FRIENDS!!!

-pr- NAMASTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS) HAPPY NEW YEAR TO Mr. Ornery! It's already next year in NZ!!!!