*post topic inspired by "Walk A Mile In My Shoes" Blaqueman, author*

THE FOLLOWING POST IS INSPIRED BY OUR FRIEND BLAQUE'S RECENT POST....IT STARTED OFF AS A COMMENT BUT I THEN REALIZED IT WAS MORE OF A POST!

I DON'T EVEN EXPECT ANY COMMENTS...I JUST WANTED TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST. WARNING, IT'S KIND OF AN R RATED POST...DON'T WANT TO OFFEND ANYONE...JUST BEING REAL AS BLAQUE ALWAYS IS WITH US.....

HERE WE GO:

..."I had the strangest dream the other night (so strange that I am going to blog about it.) I dreamed I was in the audience of a beauty contest show. The contestant (who was not all that young or beautiful, maybe she was supposed to be ME?) was being asked by the MC one of those "questions"..."If you could try and fufil one dream, what would it be?" The contestant thought and thought and then himmed and hawed about how she couldn't actually do it because of this, that and the other...(making excuses)and suddenly like on tv, it cuts back to the MC getting tired of her making excuses so from behind this posterboard he's holding in one hand, he pulls out a gun, sticks it to her head and says..."WHAT WILL YOU DO TO MAKE YOUR DREAM COME TRUE!?" She instantly and with a very shaky voice started rattling off this whole game plan!!! Suddenly, with this gun to her temple, she stopped creating mental hurdles, emotional brick walls and whiney obstacle courses.

I woke up and thought...how many times do I just sit here waiting for things to happen to me? I wait for boats to come to me, I don't row out to them. I've been sitting on a couple of dreams because as horrid and uncomfortable as it's been sitting on them, the motivation to go out and really do anything about them hasn't been strong enough. What's-a-matter....do you need a GUN TO YOUR HEAD Rubble to inspire you to get off your ass?

And what about this 22lbs you've been threatening to take off for 2 years???HUH??? You need a gun to your head about that as well?

What if you HAD to get that weight off...what IF it were life or death? Bet you'd get off your ass and work, maybe it'd be babysteps but you'd do it damn it! You'd do it and you'd do it with a freaking smile on your face!

Sometimes we are such our own worse enemy...we are in one moment so kid gloves with ourselves (spoiling ourselves) and yet the next moment, we are our own harshest critics!!

We must strive (especially the older we get) to strike a balance of moderation...in everything. To go with the flow...to live our best life.

Just some random thoughts...thanks for letting me share them with you Blaque.

Good luck in your endeavors. Wish me luck to...I'm only 144lbs but that's up from 120 of '05 and I've always been in good shape (always a dancer, dance teacher, mom of three, active preschool teacher, gym rat-ette for three years....now look at me, looking all fuddy duddy with extra rolls I NEVER THE FUCK HAD!?? I'm disgusted with myself! I don't even want my fiance looking at me sometimes, much less touching me! And that's not fair to him BUT...that's how I feel. Lucky woman I am, he ALWAYS thinks I look sexy...puh-leeze....I CAN SEE MYSELF IN THE MIRROR!!!??? I'm only 5'2 so I can't afford this extra weight...I'm PHYSICALLY uncomfortable!! Certain sexual positions are not as great as they used to be because I either have to have sex OR breathe, I can't do both! (NOW THAT'S PATHETIC!!!)

....And I'm an APPLE shape...my weight is dangerous for my heart! :(

Good luck, good luck,...good LUCK! Let's DO IT THIS TIME...for our HEALTH and for our CHILDREN!!!! (and future grandbabies!) After all, yeh, we can go on living for years but it's about the QUALITY of your life...and feeling sexy, vital and having working erections IS quality...true? Oh and did I mention, being able to have sex in ANY position you so choose is QUALITY as well!!!"

Sun....Aries
Moon...Taurus
Time...2:23am zzzz (I should be sleepin')
Mood... must finish blog!
Weather...55 and 40% chance of rain today...
Sound...Gambling after dark....

Anniversary of Oklahoma Bombing and Columbine.....

But on a lighter note:
OMG! That's the fastest my icon has ever popped up! So it's my "happy PEACE MAN!" icon....(All you need is love and peace!) So it's time (before I call it a nite) to do my HAPPY MUSIC BLOG!

Yesterday was all about RUINED songs (see yesterday's blog and feel free to post according to the subject.)

But today is all about HAPPY SONGS/HAPPY MEMORIES....

Here's a few of mine...
Include yours!

"I KNEW I LOVED YOU BEFORE I MET YOU"....I think of my kids whom I did love before I met!

"DOWNTOWN"...Petulia Clark. I think of the first pop song I can remember and my mom who couldn't carry a tune in a bucket, warbling it around the house....

"THE LONELY BULL" by Herb Alpert...I think of my dad and smile. He loved Herb Alpert and the Tiajuana Brass!

"DROPS OF JUPITER"....*sigh* the first deep, true love of my life....

Anything by MAROON FIVE....reminds me of my fiance and I meeting for the first time since last seeing each other when we were 15 ('77) and were driving over to Orlando to spend the week together ('05)

"American Pie".....my very most fav. song of all times...My years in Germany ('70-'72)

"And I Love Her"....my dad and mom dancing in the living room, me sitting on the couch watching them....they loved each other so...

I could go on...but I'll stop here...can't wait to hear yours.....but remember, visit yesterdays blog to tell me about those songs that have been ruined by people or experiences!



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Sun...Aries
Moon...Taurus
Time...1:49pm
Mood...o.k.
Weather...55 and mostly cloudy in DC
Sound...Christina's Court
BirthdayShoutOutsTo:
# 1976 Melissa Joan Hart (actress)
# 1968 Christian Slater (actor)
# 1967 Maria Bello (actress)
# 1963 Conan O'Brien (comedian, host)
# 1956 John James Minneapolis Mn, (actor)
# 1956 Eric Roberts Miss, (actor)
# 1953 Rick Moranis Toronto (actor)
# 1947 James Woods Warwick RI, (actor)
# 1947 Cindy Pickett (actress)
# 1946 Hayley Mills London England, (actress)
# 1925 Bob Hastings Bkln NY, (actor)

QuoteDiva sez..."It's not that some people have willpower and some don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not." -James Gordon, M.D.

Did you ever have a song that you really, really liked but it was ruined by an experience or a person?

"Gone" (I think of my former boyfriend, the one I fell head over heels in love with and just never stopped for the longest time.)

"Steppin Out" Joe Jackson (1982)...when I hear this song I think of the night my dad asked me to come with him to visit my mother and I rolled my eyes and sighed deeply...thinking, "Why, she doesn't even know I'm there." I felt like it was a chore...two days later, she was dead.

Anything by Grateful Dead reminds me of the nights the ex husband would get drunk.....enough said there. he also kinda' ruined a few Jimmy Buffet songs. Certain music was playing in the background when not so nice things happened...so yeh, it really ruins the music.

Your turn!

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Two weeks ago I met fiance's real estate agent, Anna and her husband. Randall is about 6'3 and in his mid 60's. He is a gentle man but a bear of a man in size. He looks like he used to play football.

"That's quite a rock you got there!" I said pointing to his class ring.

"Yup, I played football there and graduated class of '66." he beamed.

"Our daughter goes there now!" added his wife proudly.

"It's a beautiful town, by the mountains." she continued. We love to go visit her because it's such a warm little town. A real college town but we like the energy the young folk bring."

"Sounds like Tallahassee, a quaint little college town."

"GO NOLES" a chime!"

"So she really likes it there?" asked fiance.

"Oh yes, she wouldn't want to be anywhere else. She's going to be an engineer you know!"

"Wow, we'll have to go there, I took Rubble through the mountains last October and she loved them."

"Yeh, if I go back to college, I'd have to do it in a place like that, with mountains as a backdrop" I laugh. You know both my parents graduated from FSU in their forties!!"

"I know you Rubble," interjects fiance, "You'd never go to class, you'd skip out and hike; it'd take you 10 years to graduate!!"

"Damn fine school that Virginia Tech. We still go to the games." says Randall. Obviously still proud of his school (and daughter) some 41 years later.

Anna and Randall were relieved to hear from their daughter who was unharmed in yesterday's attack.

Six degrees of separation....God's way of reaffirming the fact we are one...universe...."one song."

My prayers and those of my fiance go with you and yours...and ours.

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I checked in on Lucy's Sunday Post as I usually do for fun and laughs but found something more important and serious....please read and you'll understand better where today's post is coming from....

Peever, this one's for you and for us as a nation.

This is a "reissue" from a few days ago. The name of my young friend is Matt Dyer....please pray for him and all the other men and women in IRAQ.

..."Not much time...speaking of Icons...this one is a big departure from my usual narcissist or just plain silly icons! Fiance and I were walking around the DC mall and tidal basin a few weekends ago, enjoying the cherry blossom explosion....and decided to take a time out on the steps of the Jefferson Memorial. Suddenly these four serious looking young men came walking by. They were walking past a stage where performers were showing us martial arts moves. As soon as they cleared the stage, seconds after having their picture taken by me,...they broke out in hysterics! It was so funny! But for my photo, they look so reserved!

None of them were more than maybe twenty-three years old. Any one of them could have been my son. Suddenly I thought of this twenty-nine year old man I know who is over in Iraq (just went over.) But he's not just any man. I have known this man since he was all of seven. I am very proud to know him and I pray for his safety ever day.

Seeing these boys, reminded me of how close the war has come to me. It's not just a story on the news. He was the most precious little boy, so well-mannered and had such a beautiful smile! He's still that same little boy...only grown up, married, miles from home, in a very volatile situation.

Pray for him and his comrades in arms as well as their families and our nation. We need it, more than ever."

APRIL 16th, 2007....

MATT...I am so proud of you but I pray for your quick return so that you can be with your family and your new bride and start a family!!!!

With Respect....

Miss "Rubble" (your former Latchkey caretaker, 1984-1985 )

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